Some goals I never manage – e.g. learn to swim
Some goals I am still working for – e.g. writing my first novel
The goal I was concentrating on recently has disintegrated.
For a long time, I had put in so much hard work for it…planning and preparing…dreaming during the day, dreaming during the night…meeting with my friends and discussing ideas…buying magazines to get inspiration…sharing to my family…sharing to my colleagues…dreaming, smiling, dreaming…
The problem was that this goal was supposed to be between two people…two people’s goal to achieve the same thing…
I think I was so caught up with it all and didn’t see the signs. Actually, I think I saw the signs but I just could not face them.
I was going forward, but the other person was going in a different direction…the opposite direction…sometimes, we were walking the same way, but then after he discussed it with another, he ran off…but then he came back, then he ran off, then it was on, then it was off….
It brings me with great unhappiness to announce this, but yes, it’s true, the engagement is off and the relationship is on a “break”(-up??), and not by my choice.
Not all fairytales have happy endings! It’s a LIE! I am so heartbroken…
But hey, even though I’ve been poorly (insomnia and losing weight and lan ocean of tears) — I don’t want your pity please — good things have emerged from this, which include growing closer to God and newfound and rediscovered friendships.
I was in danger of becoming a pathetic, depressive, boring, lonely, withdrawn and old gal…but you know, I reckon I am a (semi-)confident, friendly, funny, vibrant and cute young woman !!! (- this feeling had better last!! Who needs guys anyway?)
And for anyone else who is going through a break-up, please read my advice on how to get over a break-up.