I was feeling really ill the other day and looking really sickly and pale. I basically rolled out of bed and threw on some shabby clothes, didn’t brush my hair and plodded to work. After work, I desperately wanted to go home to my bed, but I had to go and do Christmas shopping for my colleagues.
While I was there, I met up with two of my guy friends – Mr SW and Mr Pony.
As soon as Mr Pony saw me, he said “OHMYGOODNESS Ling, you NEED make-up pronto!” and wanted to drag me to the shops with make-up.
Mr SW told him to leave me alone as I was sick and “…besides, she’s getting married so it doesn’t matter anyway!” - Clearly, Mr SW doesn’t read my blog – how do you tell your friends that you are no longer getting married? (That should be a future blog!)
Anyway, I was giving the “I don’t give a damn” plus “I’m sick” plus “It’s what inside that counts” excuses.
Yes recently, I’ve been trying to let my inner beauty shine through and dazzle people and the thought of dolling up for work means getting half an hour’s less sleep…NO WAY!!
So, there I was, trying to be proud of my “au naturale” sickly non-make-up look and avoiding Mr Pony’s attempts at dragging me to the make-up counter….
…and we bumped into Mr Sheep – this guy I have met twice where we’re still at that awkwardish acquaintance stage.
And immediately, I tried to conceal my eyebags and deathly skin with my scarf and hair. It is not as if he is interested in me in any way, but I just felt self-conscious and ashamed of my natural looks….
I thought about this incident afterwards. It just highlights how stupid I am to think that some cosmetic pigments would make me look and feel good. I feel so pathetic.
I am going to try and be a more confident woman in 2008 and not feel less pretty without perfectly coiffed hair and perfectly plastered make-up.
So, remember if you see me walking around looking ill and tired, I probably am not….it’s just that I look like that without make-up!
Please let my inner Ling beauty radiate through and let me dazzle you with my dazzling smile.