Time is flying!!! We’re in the month of May already!! Here are some snapshots of what I got up to in April…
1. Friends
One can never have too many friends! I have made some new friends in Melbourne and it’s all good. With friends, I like to hang out and be myself. We’ve done a lot of eating, chilling, chatting and laughing together.
2. Food
I have decided to eat healthier in May (do not say DIET!) so I totally binged the entire month of April and ate whatever and whenever.
I also made some wanton dumplings – I made the filling and then wrapped them up. However, I severely burnt them when I tried frying them and set the fire alarm off in the house! LOL.
3. Mail
I received lots of surprise packages recently. I won a few competitions and got sent prizes and I received beauty products to review for my beauty blog and then, my lovely friend sent me Chanel bags – just the cardboard ones, and not the lambskin one. I love collecting beautiful cardboard bags!!! She was kind enough to send me mini samples of Chanel goodies too!
4. Work
I worked quite a lot in April – I do a temp (locum) job in this dental community clinic. And I worked in the dental van!! That was fun. Also, got to hang out with colleagues at an engagement party. Work hard, play hard!
5. Dates
Hubby and I went on a date to watch the amazing Bruno Mars in a live gig – at one point, I turned around to see Hubby playing games on his iPhone! SIGH!!! Regardless, I savour every moment we spend together! Love him to bits and pieces.
6. Mystery Illness
I’ve been struck down with a mysterious oral illness – doctor suspects a viral infection. It hurts like a mother to eat and drink. I’ve had it for over a week now. It’s not ulcers. I have no idea what it is. It has now spread to my tongue. My teeth have also started hurting. Hubby hasn’t kissed me for days because he thinks it may be contagious.
P.S. Yes, I have a silver amalgam filling in my upper right first molar.
7. Baby Gaga
I’d like to introduce everyone to the new addition to our wee family – Baby Gaga. She is a beautiful metallic black Toyota Yaris hatchback. My parents bought me an extra early birthday present. They really know how to spoil me! And of course, I want to remind everyone that I still love Koyoti, my yellow Volkswagen Polo – but she’s in Scotland…
Anyway, hope you enjoyed looking at these photos I took with my iPhone 4. It’s not the best quality but it gives you a peek into my life. Thinking of doing this as a monthly photo blog post. Let me know in the comments what you think.
I am annoyed. I spent an hour writing a blog and was 80% near completion but somehow, it disappeared and it’s gone to blog heaven!! I am sorry! You should have been reading that blog post instead of this. It’s too late for me to start writing it again. Shall post tomorrow. Instead, if you are desperate, may I direct you to my beauty blog. It doesn’t have witty blog posts but it has plenty of photos of me. Yes, it’s all about me, me and ME! You know you love me! Come back tomorrow please.
I’ve been depressed lately. Yeah, what’s new? Anything big or small can easily make me cry. I’m depressed about a lot of things so I am going to list the reasons one by one.
But before I do, there is no need to panic, I am not going to kill myself or leave my Husband or do anything crazy. Blogging about it is therapy for me. Please don’t judge me either. And please please please, if you know me in real life, do not talk to me about it. It makes it awkward. I don’t like talking about my feelings but if you want me to write about it and let the whole world know via internet, I am totally cool with that. Talk about it? Please! Let’s never go there. (Yes, old faithful readers know never to talk about my blog to my face, but new readers don’t know that about me. And yes, I am weird like that.)
Now that is all out of the way, I can carry on with my this post. Here are the reasons why I am a ticking waterbomb :-
1. I am homesick and miss my crazy dysfunctional family.
It was one of my brother’s birthday recently (a few days after my Mum’s) and it just made me sad. My younger siblings are growing up and I am not around to witness that. People may think Skype is the answer to all homesickness but it’s not. I hate Skyping. It makes me feel like I am missing out on more. Instead, I prefer not being in contact with them so I forget and not think about them too much.
2. I miss my friends. All of them.
People think it’s easy to make friends here. Most of them are the Husband’s friends and I often hear them talk about their memories and the fun they had this time and that time. No, I am not jealous and wish that I was there too. I think about my memories and history with my friends. Sure, we can create new memories in Melbourne together but it’s not the same. The new friendships I have been making are totally different to the ones at home. I have been making lots of new girlfriends and hardly any guy friends. Some girls scare me, some girls don’t. It’s weird.
3. I am fat!
Okay, before anyone says anything, I would like to state that I have gone up two dress sizes! I may still look small, but I don’t feel it. I can’t zip up my favourite jeans, I can’t wear my dresses, etc. People don’t understand. To me, I AM FAT! To others, I am not and they think I am moaning about nothing. But they just don’t understand. I don’t mean that I am obese. You don’t have to be size 30 to be fat!!!!!!!! I can be a size 10/12 and be fat. And no, I don’t think I look better being this size. Yes, it is my fault for over-eating – but please remember, I am depressed so I will binge!!!
The Husband came home the other day and found me hiding in one of the bedrooms in the dark in the corner eating chocolate cake and ice-cream. I have such an unhealthy relationship with food. ARGH!!! And I hate me even more for lack of willpower.
But I am going to join the gym soon. Which leads me to the next reason why I am depressed…
4. We are skint.
So one of the reasons why I haven’t joined the gym sooner is lack of money. We just don’t have money for such luxuries – but since I am turning FAT, I have decided to spend money we don’t really have.
As you may already know, the Husband had a career change and is now an apprentice. An apprentice earns peanuts. End of.
As for me, yes, people always say dentists earn lots of money and it’s easy for dentists to get a job. NO IT IS NOT TRUE!!! I have had job offers but nothing suits – people may think that I am being picky and in some ways, it is true – but why should I compromise my work ethics or sign a contract unwillingly. I do have a Friday part-time job but it pays peanuts because I work in the community centre.
And well, I hate having to watch what I spend. I also hate the fact that I have to justify purchases to my Husband even though I earn most of the money we have. I have a never-ending wishlist of things I want. I want to go on holiday. I want to go back to UK. I want a new camera. I want, I want!
5. Lack of romance.
The Husband and I have totally different love languages. I am dreaming of romantic love poems – but I will never get that. While we were dating, I would get back massages and foot rubs. Now, nothing. My requests for back massages have been unsuccessful. While we were dating, he would always insist on “just us” time – but now we are married, we hardly ever get “just us” time. And then, I wish we could go for romantic getaways – but we have no money!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!! I don’t know. Maybe I have high expectations. I mean, don’t get me wrong. There are great things about marriage. I just wish there was more romance!
Oh, there are only 5 reasons to my depression. Gosh, I feel so much better now that I’ve blogged about it. Haha. Thanks for reading.
Note : It is not PMS nor am I pregnant. It’s just me.
A few weeks ago, the Husband and I had a fight. And it all started because of this :
Me : What’s wrong? Him : Nothing.
He said “Nothing” when there was clearly “something”.
He had been quiet all day, and in a quest to discover why he was not his usual cheery self, I repeatedly asked him questions, but he repeatedly answered in monosyllables.
Me : Oh, wasn’t that amazing? I thought it was very funny. Him : Yep. Me : blah…blah…blah… Him : Yep. Me : Are you okay? Him : Yep. Me : Is something wrong? Him : No. Me : *I say something funny and crack a joke* Him : *no response*
At this point, I was getting angry! Why?
a) He was ruining my good mood by his lack of enthusiasm and one-word answers.
b) When I asked him what the problem was because I was concerned, he said there was no problem, but CLEARLY, there was something. And in my books, that’s a GIRLY thing to do!!! Yes, there are girls out there who torture their boyfriends doing the stupid sulky tantrums.
Guy : “What’s wrong?” Girl : “Nothing!” (but I want you to keep asking because there is something…)
So, in the end, I got really mad because he was not responding to anything.
And this is what was going on in my mind…
WTF? Ohmigosh! He’s such a girl! Why won’t he answer my questions? Why is he doing something a stupid teenage girl does to her stupid teenage boyfriend? Why is he a girl? Why did I marry a girl? Why can’t he just man up and tell me his problem? Is it me? Oh no! What did I do? I didn’t do anything! Is he mad because I didn’t put away my clothes? Is he mad because he is sexually frustrated? No, that can’t be the reason. We just did it the other day. Have I spent money I shouldn’t have? No… OMG! He’s a girl! OH NO! Great, I’m stuck. I shouldn’t have married him. Dammit! Okay, maybe I should leave him. I can book the next flight home. Oh, but wait, most of my stuff is in Australia now. I can’t take all my handbags with me. Oh maaaaaaan!
I reached my boiling point and my good mood dissipated and I was left angry. And only then, did he start to make an effort. He started to try and talk to me. But it was too late. I was on fire!
I was angry at him even more because when he started talking to me and asking me questions, I had to bite my tongue and not answer him. I was giving him the silent treatment. And I hate giving people the silent treatment because I think it is highly rude when you don’t respond to someone. My Mother always taught me good manners and ignoring someone is rude!! But I was forced to not respond to his questions and it made me even angrier.
A couple of hours later, he came over and said, “I’m sorry!” and that was enough to get me crying. I thought he would never apologise for his behaviour but he did so of course, I forgave him.
He explained that he gets quiet like that when he is “in a mood” and he just wants to be left alone. But I said that he should tell me. Say something like “I don’t want to talk at the moment” instead of answering “nothing” when there is “something”.
I learnt a number of things from this fight of ours :-
1. I married a grumpy old man who acts like a girl sometimes. 2. I am terrible at situations like this because I tend to think running away will be the solution. 3. I have too many handbags!
Girls and guys, the take home message of this blog post is :
Never say “nothing” when there is “something”!
Have you had any interesting fights with your significant other? How did you handle the situation?
As her awesome daughter, I made her a Youtube video. Please sit back and press play.
I’m not an expert at iMovie editing and as a newbie to it, I reckon I did a pretty good job. Now everyone will wish that I was their daughter I kid!!! But she watched this video already and she says I should have been a director instead of a dentist – now how sweet is that?
It’s really sad to be far away from my Mum…and I miss her all the time. Good thing, I have videos of her doing silly stuff to keep me entertained. I love you Mama!!
Sometimes I think I am stupid, sometimes I think I am silly and sometimes I think I am both. Take today for example…
After I went to the Gym (yes, you read correctly, I went to the Gym!!!), I went to the supermarket which was near the Gym to buy groceries. However, when it was time to pay, I realised I had left my purse at home. DOH! In Australia, we are required to drive at all time with a driver’s licence so if I had been stopped by the police… Anyway, so this supermarket is 20 minutes drive from our place. Yes, 20 minutes. (And that’s partly due to my fault for booking Gym classes at a gym which was so far away – it turned out that there is the same branch of Gym which is waaaay closer to our place – like down the road!! But I booked this Gym without consulting Google Maps. So that’s definitely stupidity!) The checkout lady asked if I was going to leave the groceries or return for them. I did a quick calculation in my head – it would take me 40 minutes to do a return trip. I said to her, “Yes, I’ll be back in 20 minutes!” WTF? 20 minutes? I just calculated 40 minutes!! I could easily have said “Sorry, but no thanks” and go home, get my purse and go to my local supermarket which is up the road and shop for groceries again. Now, was I being stupid or silly??
I drove home and got my purse and headed back to the supermarket. Paid for my groceries and headed to the car. I was carrying 3 large bags of shopping and my handbag. I put the bags of groceries on the ground and took out my keys. Now, I have a bunch of keys but the car key is clearly marked. But for some stupid or silly reason, even though I knew fine well that I didn’t choose the correct key to open the car door, I still tried to force it in! Obviously did not work! Thank God I didn’t somehow snap the incorrect key int the keyhole.
Finally, after opening the car door with the correct key, I chucked all the shopping bags onto the car seat and closed the car door. I put on my seatbelt….and there’s no car key! Hello? I looked through all the shopping bags. Nothing. I looked on the car seat. Nothing. I looked in my handbag. Nothing. And then I got out the car…and it was still in the keyhole. DOH! Was that me being stupid or silly?
Hello, my name is Ling and I'm from Scotland but I now live in Melbourne after meeting the love of my life on Manly Beach in Sydney. We married 180 days after our initial meeting! This blog has evolved from my single days into documenting our life together - food, marriage, babies, rants and everything in between. Read more >>
