Sick Leave #2

By Ling

I used to wonder why people get addicted to painkillers.  I mean, addiction to gambling / shopping / eating / porn / alcohol / etc kinda made sense because it makes you feel good / excited / etc….but painkillers??  I didn’t get it….till recently.

Painkillers don’t kill pain.

If you are in pain physically / mentally / emotionally, painkillers numb and soothe all the pain.  Taking so many painkillers make you feel woozy and all the pain is gone temporarily…the pain relief doesn’t last long, so you end up taking more and more…until the maximum dose of the day is reached…

Sooner or later, even taking the maximum dose of the painkillers won’t numb the pain…what do you do then???

That scares me.

I was sitting in the waiting room of the doctor’s surgery today.  I started reading the leaflets.

Warning signs of depression :- insomnia / loss of appetite / mood swings / tearfulness / suicidal tendencies / etc
- if you experience these symptoms for a few weeks, please seek professional advice…

I think I may be stressed, bordering on depressed. sighs.

A second course of antibiotics is required for my disgusting wound which I don’t even wanna look at.  Ugh!  4 weeks of sick leave…ugh!  I am so frustrated with my poor wound healing abilities!

..I suppose it doesn’t help when I want that one person to care, but he doesn’t…

4 Comments on Sick Leave #2

  1. onle
    February 22, 2008 at 7:44 pm (6 years ago)


  2. EvaSquirrel
    February 21, 2008 at 6:12 am (6 years ago)

    Hey Ling, I hope you recover completely soon. I know it must be really hard to cope with everything but you have to be strong. And even at your lowest points, always remember that there are people who care about you. x


  3. ansypansy
    February 20, 2008 at 8:05 pm (6 years ago)

    “Sooner or later, even taking the maximum dose of the painkillers won’t numb the pain…what do you do then???”
    Don’t even try it…. when you go over board with maximum dose, it can be too late to go back. unless you get discovered by someone (in time to get your stomach pumped) otherwise, you’ll be discovered a few hours too late like how heath ledger was discovered… not good.

    anyway. ansy is a friend of depression. God uses depression to get us to draw closer to Him, no matter how far you feel you are from God. through every curse comes a blessing….


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