Monday

Woah!

Posted by Ling on November 8, 2004

Woah!  So much has happened recently.  It’s a long story.

I was at church a couple of months ago and the Pastor preached this :-

“I have friends who are in their thirties and they are still looking for love.  They complain about being single.  But they’re not single because they are ugly or boring.  They are only single because they DON’T give anyone that comes along a chance….”

My ears pricked as I heard this because that is SOOOOO me! “Oh nooo…I don’t wanna be some stuck-up b*tch who don’t give no decent guys a chance…” And immediately, I said a quick prayer to God promising Him that the next Christian guy that came along who made a move on me, I would definitely give them a chance.

Remember this warning I blogged about?  I get introduced to a male doctor the next day – read this reminder.  I specifically told him that I was only interested in friendship, nothing else.

Even though, he hadn’t revealed that he liked me more than a friend, I wrote in my Personal Diary :-

On drive to Chinatown…compliments…”pretty girl”…I find it so difficult to accept compliments from Mr Geek… I don’t want to hurt this poor boy so it is probably best if we never get involved…I guess I’m just gonna leave it in God’s hands…If I am supposed to be with him, then we will be together…

So next time we hang out, I make sure my other friends are there too because I don’t like to mislead guys.  But that night, as I was driving him to the train station, he reveals his feelings for me and asks me to give him a chance to get to know him better, with specific requests to spend time with me ALONE!!!  EEEEEK!!!!!!!!  NOOOO!!!!

“This is just a phase…it will pass…I’m really ugly and fat!!!”

“Just give me a chance!”

My Personal Diary says this “I feel fat n ugly…why does he like me?”

I actually rejected him a few times, but he was persistent.  He claims that “Some things are worth fighting for…”

There were so many reasons why I am reluctant to be a girlfriend.  Sometimes I feel I don’t deserve love…

My family warmed to him before I did.  So after much prayer, I have decided to give him and give myself a chance!

Previously, when he used to compliment me, I would laugh in his face because it sounded so wrong!!  But now, I have learnt to accept compliments because maybe I am pretty…

In conclusion : I am Mr Geek’s girlfriend.

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